Winter Dream Meaning

Due to certain things today, I came to realize what my winter dream means:

• A Perpetual Winter: A fixation, a stagnant point. Being in it or finding comfort in it may make me lose track of time and be stuck in it forever. This frozen place or frozen point represents the attempt to preserve something, which may still spoil later on because of its oldness or because it has frozen beyond recognition.
  
• Many women: All aspects of me. They all look alike even if they seem to be different from each other because they are my different aspects, my different points of view. They all look beautiful and glamorous and satisfied because that is how I perceive myself to be at this point, or especially at the point when I had my dream.
• Cotton purple dresses: Despite the snow, my selves wore thin cotton dresses, showing that they have gotten used to the cold and do not mind it at all. The color purple represents royalty, being a queen in my own world, in my own queendom. Wearing such a supposedly uncomfortable dress in the cold shows my current state of being satisfied being in that freezing point, that unmoving phase. Wearing such a dress means I may have taken the winter place as my home, at least that’s what I think of it. The one behind me wearing pink arm warmers which still leave the shoulders exposed is my self that think I am aware of the realities and I have enough realistic protection, when in fact, the pink warmers are just something to show people that I am not taking anything for granted, when in fact I am still not quite seeing things.
  
• Shades: In connection to the previous point, my selves wore shades because we believe we needed protection from the sun, that we might hurt our eyes despite the constant snowing, not realizing that the sun is looking us in the face even if we don’t see it. Well, the shades are my rationalizations. My refusal to see how bleak this phase is. How odd I all look in the snow in sleeveless cotton dresses.
  
• Umbrellas: In addition to the shades, I carried umbrellas. These protect my selves from the continuous falliing of snow, hence, the prolonging of my ability, or our abilities, to stay under the snow, surrounded by snow.
  

Now, this snowy phase or this snowy world I live in must be thawed. It can’t be winter forever. It must make way for spring and other seasons. But first it must be thawed.

Prior to finding myself in that winter place, there was a chaotic part where someone was on his way to that place but I will spare the details. But I guess the dream is also telling me that before someone can actually enter the place or join a community of people who are apparently my selves, the seasons will have to normalize. And it will all start with the thawing. 

And My Lines Completed Yours

I was memorizing lines and then i would have to recite them onstage for some kind of mini-play or mini-presentation. Then there were women dressed like queens watching. They wore gilded headdresses. At first, I was able to recite a few lines, solo, on stage. And then when I got backstage, I was given a piece of paper with another set of lines to memorize and recite. For some odd reason, I couldn’t concentrate on remembering the lines. It’s amazing I didn’t wake up from too much thinking and trying to remember and focus in the dream. 

So on the second script, the lines have become more difficult because there were non-English words which were also written in a different way and they were pronounced differently as well, so I couldn’t understand.  

I was starting to panic especially when I saw the stern look of the queens. I then went to the other side of the backstage and then suddenly, an assistant approached me and gave me the wrist band and knee strap that I use for my martial arts. I took them but wondered what I need them for. Suddenly, a guy appeared, and I don’t know him in real life, nor saw his face in the dream because he was either looking at the script and his face was hidden from view or I was behind him or at a wrong angle. He was holding a folder in which the complete script was fastened, and it was opened to the page where his lines were. I asked him how to read the difficult words and he taught me how. I told him how nervous I was and then he assured me and said, just recite your lines, and follow my cue. Then he showed me the script and I realized that my lines were supposed to be recited with his. I was not going to be alone onstage; my lines were supposed to complete his. It was his scenario and without me and my lines, he’d have blanks and his scenario will not make any sense. I saw my lines in between his, and we were supposed to answer each other, that is why he said I should follow his cue and know that I will not be lost. So, he helped me pronounce the foreign words and then it was easier for me to remember what I was supposed to say and felt better that I was not going to be alone after all. I felt much calmer after that. 

An Interpretation Given to Me:

It means that I will find myself in another relationship. I am not the kind to be single for long. For now I’m ok but eventually I will need to have an other and we will “complete” each other.

And I have a lot of apprehensions about it because of what I just went through. The queens are the things that intimidate me about relationships. The strange language are my own fears that there might be things I might not get from it, or that I might miss out on important things that I should know. The  queens could also be my own expectations, and given what happened, they are set so high at the moment.The straps and wrist bands could mean that in my next “role,” I am going to have some kind of protection.

Further to the "Fragments" Dream

Inputs from someone who reviewed “Fragments”:

• Mr. Perfect Skin: represents something I’m not acknowledging that I need or want.
  
• Ururu-chan represents that aspect of me that is hopeful and happy and innocent and it wants to reconnect with me.
• I have to take a stand and say no, or say yes but embrace the choice wholeheartedly.
• I need to have a fresh start with hindsight. Like perhaps living my life all over again with the fresh innocence and carefreeness of a child but with the wisdom of my own experiences.
  

Fragments: Possible Meanings

This is in reference to the previous entry. Here are some elements which I found that currently make sense to me:

• The Color Yellow : Tells me that right now, I have the inability to make a decision about something. Yestrday, my horoscope told me that I have to make a decision or choose a path already. And right now, I am having quite a difficulty with this. I will need to consult my runes. I just wonder why it was Mr. Perfect Skin wore the color yellow. I have no idea what he represents. I’ve had recurring dreams before of going after him when I have no interest in him whatsoever. 
• Buddha: The need to find peace within myself. I guess this is one thing I need to find within me right now. It’s not that I am not at peace, but lately I have been in a kind of anxious phase. I sort of feel myself fully shifting into a new way of life, and I am uncertain about being fully into it. I guess I am with Ururu-chan because she has a certain calmness around her that is totally free of angst and resentment and hatred. And I guess I wish for that in myself. 
• Magic: Magic being performed may require me to see things in an unusual way, perhaps in a way that may not occur to anyone as readily acceptable, because that could be the way for me to move forward. Again, it’s about moving forward a path. I guess I really have to take action on something or put my foot down. 
• New House: My parents were looking at the house for sale because we were considering moving into it. A house in general represents your own identity, and so a new one may tell you that you are taking on a new identity, with new points of view and new ways of thinking. This could be why there seems to be a struggle within me - a part that is holding me back and keeping me from making a decision, vs. the part that wants to move forward as a new person. 
• A baby signifies new beginnings, possibly a way of life, or a new chapter of life. It seems I need to decide to start with this new phase.