Church, and Then A Water Dream

I was going to attend a church thing. I’m not sure if it was a mass for a special event or if it was some kind of talk. I remember volunteering to sit in front, and I felt my sister and some friends teasing about it because I don’t really go to church. However I still decided to sit in front, though I don’t remember why I wanted to do so. Later on, an old woman came, she’s known to us in real life, and I don’t like her. In my dream though, I was polite to her and just decided that I will only speak to her if necessary. 

As I sat and the ceremony began, I knew I was going to be bored. I then remembered that a friend of mind sat on the second row, right behind me, so I thought I would just send him text messages.

Later on, I was in some familiar compound, and I was staying in that place with my cousins. I have had dreams of that same compound before. Sometimes it looked different, but there is always this huge grassy walk leading to the back, and this walk would be on the left side of the house. This time, there was a big blue-tiled swimming pool before you get to the walk, and I was standing beside it. I was thinking of swimming but I didn’t want to do so alone. Suddenly, my cousins came and before I could invite them, they all exclaimed that they wanted to swim. However, they all stopped at the side of the pool and realized they were wearing pants and shirts and I realized I was wearing sweat pants with feet and a big shirt, so we didn’t swim. I was somewhat disappointed, but suddenly, my parents were there, and they were with the couple who runs a club that I belong to in real life. The husband was saying something about allowing me and my sister to swim, because they were allowing us. But he was referring to another pool so we went to another place which was like, just on the other side of the wall. Their pool was very much like ours, and nearby were old cases of Pepsi. Oddly though, as I stepped into the pool, still in my pants and shirt, I realized that the pool floor was sloped, as if the entire pool was resting on one side. Worse, I saw the edge of the water and found tiny maggot-like creatures. I immediately got out of the pool. My dad, kind of embarassed, informed the husband that he’s so kind to let us swim, but the water has maggots in them. My attention shifted to something else because I couldn’t swim after all, and I woke up.

Winter Dream Meaning

Due to certain things today, I came to realize what my winter dream means:

• A Perpetual Winter: A fixation, a stagnant point. Being in it or finding comfort in it may make me lose track of time and be stuck in it forever. This frozen place or frozen point represents the attempt to preserve something, which may still spoil later on because of its oldness or because it has frozen beyond recognition.
  
• Many women: All aspects of me. They all look alike even if they seem to be different from each other because they are my different aspects, my different points of view. They all look beautiful and glamorous and satisfied because that is how I perceive myself to be at this point, or especially at the point when I had my dream.
• Cotton purple dresses: Despite the snow, my selves wore thin cotton dresses, showing that they have gotten used to the cold and do not mind it at all. The color purple represents royalty, being a queen in my own world, in my own queendom. Wearing such a supposedly uncomfortable dress in the cold shows my current state of being satisfied being in that freezing point, that unmoving phase. Wearing such a dress means I may have taken the winter place as my home, at least that’s what I think of it. The one behind me wearing pink arm warmers which still leave the shoulders exposed is my self that think I am aware of the realities and I have enough realistic protection, when in fact, the pink warmers are just something to show people that I am not taking anything for granted, when in fact I am still not quite seeing things.
  
• Shades: In connection to the previous point, my selves wore shades because we believe we needed protection from the sun, that we might hurt our eyes despite the constant snowing, not realizing that the sun is looking us in the face even if we don’t see it. Well, the shades are my rationalizations. My refusal to see how bleak this phase is. How odd I all look in the snow in sleeveless cotton dresses.
  
• Umbrellas: In addition to the shades, I carried umbrellas. These protect my selves from the continuous falliing of snow, hence, the prolonging of my ability, or our abilities, to stay under the snow, surrounded by snow.
  

Now, this snowy phase or this snowy world I live in must be thawed. It can’t be winter forever. It must make way for spring and other seasons. But first it must be thawed.

Prior to finding myself in that winter place, there was a chaotic part where someone was on his way to that place but I will spare the details. But I guess the dream is also telling me that before someone can actually enter the place or join a community of people who are apparently my selves, the seasons will have to normalize. And it will all start with the thawing. 

Winter World

I was in a place where it was always winter. The people there are so used to the cold that they can afford to wear sleeveless shirts and cotton dresses. They just make sure they carry umbrellas with them all the time because it’s always lightly snowing. Another odd thing was that people always wore shades and someone was telling me it actually looks creepy if I think about it.

I stood in the middle of the snow, and there were many people around me, all walking towards a building. I’m not if it was a church but they were all going in that direction. And yeah I noticed that most of them are women, and they were wearing sleeveless purple dresses, their brown hair in a messy but beautiful updo. They all wore shades and they all used umbrellas. The cold didn’t seem to bother them. I looked behind me and there was another woman, but she wore pink arm warmers which looked really nice. All the women were tall, thin, and pretty, and they all looked elegant despite the gloominess of the place. 

A Rat in A Yellow See-Through Trash Bag

I was in an office building and I knew I had to get away, yet make it NOT look like an escape. I know I was with someone, but I don’t remember who he is. We were like, together, and we had to escape. Then I ended up in one of the rooms, and there was a big wooden drawer, and a rat went in from the back, and I knew that the rat would be in the first drawer because suddenly it was deja vu. The guy tried to shake the drawer to make the rat come out because it’s not supposed to be in it. Next thing I remember, the rat was lured into a trap and it was suddenly inside huge yellow see-through trash bag, placed on the huge wooden table in the room. The trash bag was also filled with crumpled pieces of paper and then a knot was tightly made to make sure the rat doesn’t get out. I looked and saw the rat frantically trying to get out and get some air. I was then suddenly filled with pity and just looked away because I know I can’t let it out because it’s a rat.

Next scenario, my parents were in the room and it no longer seemed like an office building from which I was trying to escape, but I still had to get out, though no longer urgently. I’m not sure if the guy was still there but I had vague memories of him by then. Then my dad saw the trash bag and took it out to some backyard or garage, and he was so excited, because he was going to torment it or something. I wanted to stop him but decided against it because I knew he wasn’t going to listen. I looked away and didn’t want to see the rat being taken away, and I walked out of the room.

Black Plane

I was in a small black plane being flown by my dad. We were all going to some kind of family vacation. However, later on, the plane was flying lower and I started seeing vehicles on the streets more clearly and I was scared we might hit the buses below. Some people in nearby vans were also sort of panicking. However, we never really touched the other vehicles. I kept thinking we’ll be safe and then the next phase was that we were already in some kind of bigger plane or a ship which was the next part of our trip. There were several people I supposedly know and I felt that everyone there are quite okay to have around, and I felt so comfortable and content about everything. 

Laughter, and A Baby

I was in a big condo unit and I’m not quite sure if it belonged to my sister or the whole family. I was moving about, fixing things and cleaning up. Next thing I remember, I was playing with a very adorable toddler in a pinkish onesie but I know he was a baby boy. He kind of looked like me. Then I was lying on the bed and I sat him on my tummy, and as he giggled, he dove forward and buried his face between my neck and shoulders, and I was so tickled I started laughing so hard that my stomach hurt. 

Later on, I had to leave, but realized that I missed my ride. I couldn’t go out on my own because I was wearing cleaning clothes, or the ones I wore as I cleaned about.