why does the cat stare? you turn your head away from it and start walking towards the direction where the voice is coming from.
suddenly, there are stores. you need to buy shoes.
they are offering salad made of grass.
outside, it rains chickens. the hammer in your hand will protect you from their beaks.
suddenly, there are stores. you need to buy shoes.
they are offering salad made of grass.
outside, it rains chickens. the hammer in your hand will protect you from their beaks.
Fragments: Possible Meanings
August 23, 2009This is in reference to the previous entry. Here are some elements which I found that currently make sense to me:
- The Color Yellow : Tells me that right now, I have the inability to make a decision about something. Yestrday, my horoscope told me that I have to make a decision or choose a path already. And right now, I am having quite a difficulty with this. I will need to consult my runes. I just wonder why it was Mr. Perfect Skin wore the color yellow. I have no idea what he represents. I’ve had recurring dreams before of going after him when I have no interest in him whatsoever.
- Buddha: The need to find peace within myself. I guess this is one thing I need to find within me right now. It’s not that I am not at peace, but lately I have been in a kind of anxious phase. I sort of feel myself fully shifting into a new way of life, and I am uncertain about being fully into it. I guess I am with Ururu-chan because she has a certain calmness around her that is totally free of angst and resentment and hatred. And I guess I wish for that in myself.
- Magic: Magic being performed may require me to see things in an unusual way, perhaps in a way that may not occur to anyone as readily acceptable, because that could be the way for me to move forward. Again, it’s about moving forward a path. I guess I really have to take action on something or put my foot down.
- New House: My parents were looking at the house for sale because we were considering moving into it. A house in general represents your own identity, and so a new one may tell you that you are taking on a new identity, with new points of view and new ways of thinking. This could be why there seems to be a struggle within me - a part that is holding me back and keeping me from making a decision, vs. the part that wants to move forward as a new person.
- A baby signifies new beginnings, possibly a way of life, or a new chapter of life. It seems I need to decide to start with this new phase.
Fragments
In Bacolod, with friends from the club. (I realize that this is my second remembered dream involving Bacolod. The first one was about the possibility of moving there with my then-boyfriend.)
- We were all having lunch. I remember seeing rice in front of me. I was at the head of the table, and on my right was Mr. Perfect Skin. I was trying to talk to him or catch his attention but he always turned away. Apparently, there was some things and plans in his mind about us which he didn’t want to talk about yet until it was all final. Throughout the dream he wore a yellow shirt.
- The girl with us, whom we will call Ururu-chan, came and sat beside me. She said we will order another type of food, and we will have the same one, because we were best friends. She was younger in the dream than she is in real life. She was more child-like and carefree. Later on, we started eating, and her attention drifted to a nearby store. She said we should go there. As we waited outside the store (people had to take turns because there were rituals held inside for each customer), I sat on a bench. I looked at the table where all our friends were eating, and Mr. Perfect Skin was still turning away. Then Ururu-chan, kissed me on the face twice and hugged me and said I’m her favorite person and she really likes me to be her friend. I just tapped her arm to show her I’m glad to be her friend too. Inside the store were many Buddha figurines. Then she sat us down by a nearby low table, so we had to be in seiza to do the ritual. We sat across each other and she laid out a square piece of ceramic and she put 4 or 5 pieces of rubbery material in them. She then covered it with a hollow figure of a Buddha-like being with a small hole on top of its head. Then she said to me, don’t be afraid, for now you will see my magic. Then she tapped the figure and from the hole, squeezed out a balloon in the image of a dog. It’s like those things you see being sold by churches where smaller pieces of balloons are tied together to form an image. This one is a dog.
- My parents were looking at a house for sale. It was nighttime. Ururu-chan was still with me. Then I said, hey, we never paid for our food. And that’s the only time we remembered that we never actually finished lunch. Then she said, the person selling this house also runs the restaurant so we can pay her then. We went inside the house.
- Inside the house, there was some kind of serious, grown-up gathering, and I was bored to my skull. Ururu-chan has rejoined the group, and they were somewhere outside. I was stuck in the house beecause I had to attend to something. Then a couple with a baby turned to me and asked me to look after their child for a while. I held the very tiny baby and I was a bit afraid that I might break its neck unintentionally. When I was already holding it, the parents stepped out. The mom carried a bright purple shiny bag. The dad went someplace else. After what seemed to be a long time, I got agitated because I was thinking it was nighttime and I hardly spent time with Mr. Perfect Skin. Frantically, I looked for the mom of the baby.I asked my mom and she said they stepped out and that I should keep quiet because it was a serious gathering. I stepped out and saw my dad, and I said, where’s the mom of this child? And he pointed to the women a few feet away, and he said she was making a phonecall. I was slightly annoyed because she was really just chatting over the phone and it was nothing urgent. The dad was nowhere to be found. Then the mom held out her hand, asking for a few more minutes. I got so impatient and asked my dad where my sister is. He said she’s over some other part of the garden with the group (it was a HUGE garden). As I walked, I came by another area in the garden where a friend (Raz) was, and he was supposed to be the next person to the parents who should be taking care of the baby. At the same time, I saw where the group was, because I saw Mr. Perfect Skin’s yellow shirt. I hurriedly handed over the baby to Raz and was hoping Mr. Perfect Skin saw it so he would think that I look great with a baby in my arms.
